Am I Ant*-Black?

This stems from past posts. Black community would tell me that this post or that post is anti-Black. Of course my bias and ego would not allow me to see it. So I would begin to question and doubt their claim.

They would then call me anti-Black. My defenses went up and made things worse.

I am grateful for people who pulled me into the dm's to explain to me in a way that I could finally comprehend what the community was trying to convey.

I will always be grateful for those few.

Of course I try and try again. I fail time and time again.

So there were ideas about how to approach the topic. I had wanted to address it in a way that was true to my heart. However the Twitter s.j.w. brigade occurred and the "cancel culture" mob began. Then people proclaimed my anti-Blackness without actually providing context. That is the next story I want to write.

I wrote this soon after.

Some will always hate who they think I am while others will show grace and teach me who I could be. Either way I know I can't win and that isn't why I am documenting it now.

I am the one who holds myself accountable. I have to do the work in facing myself. I have to do the inner work. So I am on that journey, it might not be the path my haters want me to be on but it's a path nonetheless.

I know who I am and what I am not. I know where I've been and how far I've come.

I wanted to share this because people see what they want to see, create false narratives, recruit others to hate. All of those behaviors are on them, not me or you.

I would rather be as transparent as I can be then be shamed or publicly humiliated.

People change. People grow. We either teach one another in community or we label, shun, ostracize one another in community. We can't let go of being human.